I have been dwelling on censorship for days, my editor Ember Rose has pneumonia and has been unable to read what I've submitted to her, and my lover and I have been experiencing some interesting life changes. (Possibly good possibly not hehe.)
I haven't felt at all sexy, so how do I write about sex?
The Babysitter Rides With Mr. Thomas, my short "all sex" story that was published last week has however brought in good sales and has helped me against feeling discouraged that The Binding: An Erotic Fantasy was removed from Smashwords and that it, The Babysitter Rides With Mr. Thomas, and The On-Call Babysitter are no longer able to be available on it or several other vendor sites I was looking into, due to the fact that they contain barely-legal teen sex.
My pseudo incest book that was in the works is on pause frankly because I feel dirty writing it...which is RIDICULOUS. I am a strong, confident, GOOD writer. I don't write vanilla sex...I never have, even when I wrote "sweet romances" novels there was a level of kink. Satin blind folds, gentle coercion.
But today despite the fact that I feel so "out of it" I want to get "into it." Even if my lover tells me the stuff I produce today is crap I want to get it out there. I want to immerse myself in writing and fiction and games again.